Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Missing buddy

Feels like a lifetime since I've seen him. Missing him so badly its killing me. Fortunately, I move back to SD and family soon. Hopefully will help assuage the anguish. These past few months have been brutally lonely without my baby boy. Going to be bittersweet coming back to PETCO without him by my side.

I like this picture, with him so close by my side in our bed. He was always right there for so long.

What haunts me now is the feeling I didn't do enough in his waning hours. I could have come home on more lunch breaks; could have taken him to the park more; could have gotten him more testing and treatment; could have given him more treats, I still have some sitting on my desk right now...

1 comment:

Kristen & Richard said...

Hey Tom,
Wow you are moving back to SD, I'm so jealous I would love to move back there but my husband doesn't want us to ever move back to California. Only cuz the economy is worst there and cost of living is still high even when the economy is so bad. But I have to say we truly love where we are at in Slidell, Louisiana. Yeah, can you believe I live in the South now.
Glad to hear at least you will be closer to family. That is why we moved to Louisiana, closer to Ohio and Texas for both our family. I still love looking at J's pics and remembering my days at PETCO with him as my neighbor (you came into thoughts about eating).
Well good luck and take care,keep in touch dude!